JUST MAYBE [PART 12]

even though keira was tired...she couldnt sleep. after an hour of tossing and turning, she finally gave up. sitting up on her bed she sighed, looking out the window into the moonlit garden, everything looks so peaceful. getting off bed she found herself heading towards her bedroom door. she didnt know where she was going, or what she was doing. not bothering to care, she just let her body walk around her body made a stop. she realised she was outside his bedroom. it wasnt exactly his though since he had to share it with two of the other boys. sighing once more she wanted to turn around to go back to her room, but then her legs wouldnt let her. annoyed she slid down the wall and ended up sitting next to his bedroom door. resting her head on the wall with her eyes closed she began to reflect the times she had had with BEAST. finding herself automatically smile, when she thought about the times she has shared with each member, ive never really been this happy for a while.

'hi' she heard a voice whisper next to her ear, the warmth and sudden tone scared her. eyes wide as her heart skipped a beat she stared at the boy sitting next to her.

'ohmygosh...dujun...you scared me' patting her chest to calm down her heart

'what are you doiing outside...' he looked at the door then back to her, 'our door?'

'huh?' trying to figure out what she was going to say, the lie or the truth? 'i was actually wanting to talk to you' sighing she decided to tell the truth, in case if she were to lie, he would have thought she was looking for junhyung which she wasnt...well not that she would think so.

chuckling he was surprised, 'me?' pointing to himself he asked, 'well here i am...whats up?'

'well...i couldnt really sleep...' she glanced over at dujun who was looking at the wall infront of them and nodding, 'i was thinking about a few things, but i just wanted to really know...what is trainee life like?' she finally asked

eyes wide at her out of the blue question he thought for a while, then answered carefully, measuring keiras expression 'torturous...but dont get me wrong! the reward is totally worth it....'

keira nodded quietly and waited for him to continue.

'...its feels like centuries ago thinking about it now...but because i started quite early through an elimination program....with 2pm...2am...you know oneday right?' looking at keiras blank look he chuckled and continued, 'anyways...i was eliminated long story short...it was painful, especially since i became really close with the members...moved to Cube...and continued training but with the boys' he waved at the rooms, keira got who he was talking about, 'and when gikwang debuted first as AJ, some of us were his backup dancers and junhyung and i also helped with singing in some of the songs. though it was painful being eliminated and training again...im very glad i was able to debut with BEAST...' laughing to himself he added, 'its like we were meant to be together. i wasnt the only who was eliminated, we all had our extreme difficulties....' pausing for awhile when he realised he talked off topic, 'anyways....trainee life can be both okay and bad...its just depends on the person really...i wont say it was easy because it wasnt, it was like a full time thing. practise practise practise everyday, vocal, language, dance, talents, acting...everything...also...you never knew when they would let you debut....that was the hardest is suppose...going through all that but not knowing if you were going to make it.' his voice trailed off with his thoughts.

they sat in silence next to each other in the darkness, thinking individually.

'ja~ im going to go back now...' he turned to keira and stood up, 'you alright here by yourself?' he smiled warmly

nodding, she saw him quietly open the door and disappear. turning back to face the moonlit wall as she waited for the door to click, she sighed again, it does seem pretty intense...curling up, she rested her head on her arms as she hugged her legs. listening to the silence as she tried to imagine the pain when she heard another click. thats wierd...looking up she saw junhyung sit down beside her. she swore he could have heard her heart beating when she saw him. observing his face as he slid down to see if he did hear, a sign of a small smirk, or smile, nothing. he had a straight face.

keira didnt know what to do, she had never seen junhyung this serious...well she has but not when it was just them two. she wanted to ask him if dujun woke him up, or if he couldnt sleep like her, or if he heard what dujun and her were talking about just before. instead she just stared at him as he stared at the wall. he had this beautiful aura, this charm, the feeling he carried which made keira somehow, want him, want him to be a part of her life, and her in his. she wanted to hold his hand, to hug him, to rest her head on his shoulder....to....kiss him. sighing as she observed his kissable pink lips, she found him staring back at her this time. peering deep into her eyes as though he wanted to know what she was thinking...she felt as though she saw 'need' yet 'sadness', unable to bear the intensity she looked away, at the calming wall. after a few minutes, still, none of them talked, they just sat there, basking in each others presence and the comforting silence.

all of a sudden he laid out his hand, palm facing up in the small space between them, looking at his hand as if he was scared to look at her, he waited for her to put hers in his. he wanted to know, he wanted to know if she felt the same way as he did, and whether he should risk what he had...and what he hadnt told her.

keira was shocked and confused at this random gesture, but because of the shadowed hallway, romantic lighting through the glass slidedoor, and the fact that they were both a bit sleepy, she thought, why not? its not like he knows i like him.

lifting her hand gently and slowly she finally placed it in his. as they touched they both felt a jolt of warmth rise up their arm. again, her heart was beating like crazy, in this silence, he definitely would have heard it, it was all she could her besides their breathing. she swore she heard junhyungs breathing fasten a bit and she felt fluttery at the thought that junhyung made the first move...to her...well actually that he would even make a move to her. glancing sideways, she tried to look at his expression she giggled when she realised he had fallen asleep. he looked so peaceful and beautiful. she never could have imagined that someone could sleep that beautifully. as time passed she felt her eyelids getting heavier, gently resting her head on his shoulder she fell into deep sleep.

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hesitating yoseob stood outside keiras room facing the door arguing to himself if he should wake her up or let her sleep. he really wanted her to go with them on a picnic. after a few minutes of walking to backwards and forwards he finally decided, 'i hope she wont be mad at me for waking her up' he pulled together his confidence and slowly turned the doorknob, peaking through the gap he saw a lump under the bedcover and tiptoed into the room. clearing his throat once he poked the blob. once. twice. flinching a little when the blob turned.

'yoseob?' the voice responded lifting it head, all of a sudden keira jolted up in sitting position and frantically looked around her, she seemed confused and disappointed. yoseob thought he heard her whisper, 'so it was all a dream?' then realising that someone was standing there she turned to him with questioning eyes.

'um.. keira...we just dongwoon and i decided that we should go on a morning picnic...and we thought you might want to come?' he smiled a little once keira seemed to calm down.

'umm' keira couldnt help but still ponder about last night but she heard what yoseob had said and nodded making the boy smile up to his ears.

'perfect!!' he beamed and skipped out the room after telling her that they will be leaving after 20 minutes.

slumping out of bed, she rubbed her neck, it was a bit stiff and sore. deciding to have a quick shower she grabbed her things and got ready

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hyunseung looked at dujun and junhyung as they got ready for the picnic while the rest of the members packed the food and blankets. leaning against the shut door of their room, he looked skeptical.

'ok...spill it' dujun sighed as he continued stuffing things in his backpack

'i have theory' hyunseung stared at dujun who stopped and looked back at him.

'well its more like a feeling other than a theory because i dont exactly think it since its only been a while plus i dont want to make assumptions over something that i have a tin-'

'yah~! get to the point' dujun said annoyed as junhyung chuckled at hyunseungs babbling

'fine...i feel...that there is something is going to happen soon, and its going to test us as a group' he finalised crossing his arms

both junhyung and dujun stopped what they were doing and looked at each other then to hyunseung. hyunseung somehow always had that sixth sense even though he could be a little 4D and 'babo' sometimes and this time, junhyung and dujun couldnt disagree with what he had just said.

the three jumped when they heard a knock on the door. they realised they had been standing there staring into space that they forgot what they were supposed to be doing.

'yah~ what are you guys doing?' they heard yoseobs voice

'yeah~ um were nearly done!' dujun said after no one bothered to reply

stuffing in one last thing dujun looked at junhyung and hyunseung, 'kaja~ lets not worry about that now...' hyunseung moved aside to let the leader open the door. the last one leaving the room was junhyung who ran into keira, seeing that he seemed worried she asked, 'kwenchana?'

seeing her face just made him feel much better, 'are you ready?' he smiled reassuringly as he readjusted his beanie

'yeap...but i was wondering' keira wanted to ask about last night, 'um, were you by any chance...last night...' with curious eyes, he looked at keira who seemed quite unsure yet determined, 'well...' clearing her throat she quickly ended their conversation, 'actually i was just wondering if you had a good nights sleep...' smiling sheepishly she continued, 'thats all' she looked at him once more as he nodded and smiled back, then headed outside to meet up with the rest of the boys.

SOMETHING ELSE [part 11]

close your eyes.

'...and hold out your hand' he said gently

slightly hesitant then following his directions keira shut her eyes lifting her palms facing up.

'ok then, no peeking alright?'

'mmhmmm' nodding she kept her position as she heard footsteps walk a few distances away then stopped

'eyes closed!' gikwang paused in his tracks to check if keira was doing what she was told

'they are closed!' keira chuckled as she reassured gikwang

'good...just wait a sec k?' he shouted clearly a few metres away from her now

as keira waited obediently she listened to the waves which sounded much louder and intense now on the beach. she breathed in the sea salt smell in the air and felt the tingle of rich saltiness on her tongue. its been awhile...

after what seemed like thousands of minutes she heard footsteps approaching her. she could hear the person smile, taking their time as if they were enjoying the sight of something.

she felt heat infront of her face, a radiant warmth then all of a sudden something touched her cheeks, cool and smooth. as soon as it touched her cheek, she flicked open her eyes, shocked. gikwang was close to her but not that close, she relaxed.

chuckling softly gikwang said, 'here,' he put the stone onto her palm, 'these stones are quite popular in this region and are only found on this beach.'

blushing keira couldnt help but scoff inwardly, keeping her eyes on gikwang, she clenching the rock tightly without even looking at it

'kwenchana?' he asked as he pushed a strand of hair behind her ear

'yeah im fine' keeping her posture, still mad at what she thought happened....OR WHAT COULD HAVE REALLY HAPPENED...that she didnt notice his gentle touch

'im sorry if i startled you' he eye smiled warmly at her making her heart ache slightly even more

clearing her throat she put on a small smile, 'thank you gikwang'

'no problem!' he beamed then tilted his head to the direction where they were going to go next, 'kaja~ there still a place i want to show you...' not waiting for her he headed off first looking quite content and relaxed

clenching her fists tight then loosening them, she felt something in her hand, she forgot about the rock in her palm, lifting it up her she observed the stone. hmm? thats wierd...it is just me or....does the stone look like a heart??

'bbali!!' hearin the husky voice call her she looked up at gikwang then looked back at the stone first frowning then side smiling, i must be seeing things

'gikwang! jakkan manyo!' she shouted after him


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'yaaaah~' yoseob exclaimed as he wiped away the sweat dripping down his forehead, 'you have to admit im get better right?' turning to dujun who was taking in mouthfuls of water

'sure...better than the first time' nudging yoseob

'hey im going to wash up' junhyung kicked the ball to dujun and threw a towel over her shoulder

'do you guys want to eat anything?' hyunseung asked as he picked up his jacket shaking off the grass

'ne hyung, pegopa~ ill go with you'

'dont forget there is only half an hour left, so get ready for filming' hyunseung added as dongwoon followed quietly behind him

after a few seconds passed, yoseob finally asked, 'you know that junhyung has been acting differently these few weeks'

dujun knew that he wasnt asking a question as he remained looking into the nothingness infront of him. form that yoseob understood that dujun agreed with him.

seeing the slight worry and seriousness in dujuns eyes he quickly said smiling, 'aigooooo.....i hope he knows what he is doing' trying to make this situation more positive he tried to change the subject to avoid an angry leader especially since they will be filming later.

'kaja! doojoonjoon~ lets get cleaned up aye?' patting the leader on the shoulder he then dragged him into the pension.

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while BEAST started their recording, keira unpacked...there wasnt much to unpack so once she was done she went on a little adventure around the area, walking down hills via hidden stone stairs, and wooden steps, around a little forest, over small streams, it really does feel like home. the place isnt  so big i think it will actually be hard to get lost, as long as you stay within the fenced area i should be fine. keira carefully avoided the areas where they were recording just incase i might appear in one of the scenes, she didnt want to be involved with such publicity...yet....plus she just needed time alone. time to think, time to remember, time to relax. keira was able to get a few days off school, not always a good thing since shell have to catch up on all the work.

'aigooo~' keira sighed loudly then taking in a deep breath of fresh country air. stretching on the large round rock she was sitting on she found out that the sun was beginning to set, shocked she looked at her watch, 'ohmygosh~! its six already?!' freaking out since the recording ended at 5 keira quickly jumped up and started heading back

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'stop being so tense gikwang' yoseob stared at the fidgeting boy, 'im sure shes fine' he reassured not only the five boys but also himself

dongwoon sat infront of the tv but faced his hyungs who all looked a range of worry

'you..dont...think...she...would have gotten lost...right??' dongwoon asked carefully

dujun remained quiet, slightly frowning whilst deep in thought, it was as if he was weighing his options, while hyunseung leaned against a wall next to junhyung who had his head in his hands, stressed.

'i think we should wait for 10 more minutes, if she is not back by then...we should go search for her...split up in pairs...' hyunseung suggested calmly

gikwang, sitting on the arm rest of the couch occupied by yoseob froze. even though he doesnt feel that much for keira, not till that point...he was still very worried. keira was a girl, a girl foreign to this country....sure she has been here for a few months, but it was her first time in the country...gikwang highly doubted there would be any dangerous people, but more so that she would be lost, or hurt from falling down a cliff, or....drowned...

all of a sudden gikwang jumped up and headed for the back door, hearing swift footsteps walk past him, junhyung lifted his head to catch gikwang back as he disappeared. sighing, he stood up gently and followed gikwang.

'hey!! where are you guys going?!' yoseob shouted after them, 'it hasnt even been 10 minutes yet!' chasing after them, towards the door, hyunseung stopped him half way as yoseob ran past.

'let them go first yoseob, we'll wait' hyunseung nodded at yoseob who flicked his head from hyunseung to the door and back.

'come yoseobie~' dujun finally talked, 'let prepare dinner'

'oh! hyung! can i help too?' dongwoon suggested trying to distract himself from the worst case scenarios that may have happened to keira. dujun waved his hand suggesting him to hurry if he wanted to help.

hyunseung was left alone in the room, looking towards the direction of the door where gikwang and junhyung exited, but he was searching beyond that, into the nearly dark garden, further to where he could picture those two where, and where keira where...and where this whole situation may be leading to in the future. scoffing to himself, he chuckled, 'this is going to be interesting...'

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'keira!!'

'keira!!'

'keira where are you?'

'you didnt have to come junhyung...' gikwang said not bothering looking at junhyung as he busily looked around searching high and low

'youre not the only one who cares about her gikwang' junhyung replied stopping in his tracks to look at gikwang

 

sighing gikwang replied, 'you dont think...she would have...-' all of a sudden both the boys flicked their heads towards the trees, re flexing, frozen and quiet listening to the rustling which turned into footsteps. tense the boys prepared their posture in defense. hawking the darkness, they looked for what was making this noise.
 

junhyung relaxed

'what are you guys doing out here?' a panting voice asked

smiling to himself, junhyung put his hands in his pockets

'keira?' gikwang asked shocked but relieved

'dont tell me you guys came out to look for me' her eyes full of apology and guilt

'we were quite worried about you keira' junhyung replied a tad seriously but trying to sound collected.

'oh' was all keira could say at the time, she was amazed that the boys would have actually worried about her considering their relationship, maybe except junhyung, she may have understood if he came out. feeling her cheeks go a shade pink, she was glad the sun had set or else it would have been quite inappropriate to be blushing during a situation like this.

closing his eyes, and rubbing his temples once, gikwang said numbly, 'come on, the others are waiting for us' without waiting for any response he started heading back.

 

keira eyes followed gikwang but she didnt move. she felt bad...very bad...did she hurt gikwang? did she really make them worry that much? or was he just tired from the recording...she hoped the others did come out to look for her too...she didnt want them to waste their energy looking for her, even though she wasnt lost in the first place. she just lost track of time.

 

observing her expressions junhyung ignored gikwang. what is she thinking? he was very curious as he watched her go through several faces, she was clueless, then shocked, then worried, then a tinge of guilt...and...sadness?
 

giving up junhyung breathed out, he realised he was holding his breath the whole time he watched her.

 

'lets go' junhyung walked a few steps but kept his eyes on keira, noticing she was shivering a bit he shrugged of his jacket and put it over her shoulders

 

'its okay junhyung, im fine...' she chuckled and began taking it off when he stopped her immediately

 

'seriously...take it...im heating up from the walk anyways...'

 

what junhyung didnt know was that keira was shivering because it was cold, she was nearly sweating from running up the hills. she was actually afraid if this situation may have affected her friendship with the boys...would they be mad at her?

 

keira was a selfless person. she always worried about what others think, feel and want and since she may be staying with the boys for a while, she didnt want to make it any awkward by doing something that bothered the boys. especially not to waste their time on something like searching for her.

 

'hey~ watch out!' keira heard a voice next to her, but before she could react she felt a force pull her to the side. smacking into a smooth surface keira quickly look around. she nearly walked into a hole in the ground, turning to look at what she was holding onto she found two wide eyes.

 

'are you okay?' the smooth voice asked worried

 

she realised he was holding onto her tightly, one hand on her arm, the other around her waist and her hands tight on his chest. inches away from his face. she was speechless and couldnt move. all this happened a bit too quickly she hasnt even had the time to breath. raggedly gasping a few times, junhyung slowly let her go.

 

clearing her throat she replied, 'um...thanks...i didnt see the hole'
 

chuckling to himself, clearly enjoying the contact they just made, 'i didnt notice it either until you nearly stepped into it~'

not getting any response from he was a little uneasy, 'what are you thinking?'

'hmm? oh...well...i was just thinking about what to do when we get back...i dont really know what to do or say if there was an awkward atmosphere...you know?'

chuckling at her innocence and her tendency to worry too much, he calmed her, 'dont worry, the boys are really good at picking up the mood...plus....ill help you'
 

he smiled  an adorable smile, taking keira aback with this rare image, she took a mental picture, reflected his smile and continued walking back.
 

the rest of the walk was silent.

 

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'did you find her?' yoseobs head poked out from the corner when he heard hyunseung shout, 'gikwangs back~'

 

'and where is junhyung?' waving his spatula around

 

'they are coming' gikwang replied simply, walking past yoseob and slumping onto the couch, closing his eyes

bouncing a little at the good news, yoseob glided back to the kltchen to give the others the good news.

'i hope you know what you are doing' a voice came out of nowhere

knowing well who it was, gikwang replied without opening his eyes, 'i dont know what you are talking about hyunseung.'

'sure...just make sure you get your priorities right ki, thats all i want you to know....'

opening one eye gikwang retorted, '...you should be telling junhyung that....not me.' turning his back towards hyunseung, hyunseung knew the conversation was over. brushing what just happened off, he headed over to the kitchen to help with the last preparations for dinner.


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'we're back~' taking off his shoes and heading down the hallway towards the living room and kitchen followed by keira

'keira!!!' out of nowhere yoseob appeared running towards her and giving her the biggest, warmest and tightest hug in the world, 'are you okay?? were you lost? what happened!? i was worried sick!' he pulled her away to look at her with large innocent worried eyes then without giving her time to reply he pulled her back continuing his bear hug.

'yah~ dont suffocate her yoseobie~' a deep voice reminded him

giving one last good squeeze yoseob walked off but took keiras hand with him as he headed over to the dining table.

'ne doodoo hyung'

as they walked into the room, keira spotted gikwang sleeping on the couch. feeling a tinge of pain she was quickly distracted when yoseob plopped her onto the ground.

'ja! we cooked dinner keira! i hope you like it!'

'yes keira~ i helped too!!' dongwoon added proudly smiling like an idiot.

'wow~ amazing!' keira complimented the boys smiling widely, then losing her smile for a sec, 'im sorry guys..for making you worried,' she looked at yoseob, 'i just lost track of time haha' laughing a bit awkwardly junhyung couldnt help but smile a bit. he wasnt the only one though, all 4 four smiled with her....even the one on the couch.

'is he going to eat?' keira whispered to dujun who sat to her left

glancing over at gikwang, he reassured her, 'he is just tired, hell eat later. chopsticks' he handed her chopsticks, and they all began digging into the dinner the boys worked so hard on.


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'uwaa~ jinja!! that was good~!' dujun exclaimed leaning back rubbing his stomach

'oh really...i cant move anymore' yoseob moaned resting against the bottom of the couch

'hyung, lets clean up later~' dongwoon said as he stretched his legs under the table

'no~ ill clean up' keira smiled as she stood up taking some plates and bowls with her, 'you guys rest, let me do it'

following her with his eyes, junhyung, collected his energy and stood up, piling up the bowls and plates and taking it with him.

'oh~ kamsahamida!' yoseob shouted in relief,

'thank you junhyung' keira said when she found out who was following her, she saw him nod once and smiled.

deep down keira felt something, something warm and bubbling inside her. she was happy but she couldnt help but feel a tinge...a small tinge of something else tugging at her.

MEMORIES [part 10]

It felt as though keira was back at home. The trees, the fresh smell, the lack of population. when we stepped out of the van, she couldn’t help but smile at the fact that she actually missed this life, this environment.

‘waaah~ jincha, i can never get used to this!’ yoseob jumped out of the car, as the others followed. enjoying the view and playing around.

yawning and stretching dongwoon added, ‘this feels so good~’

‘keira~! can you get the food bag~?’ keira saw joonkuns head pop out from the back of the van.

as she headed over to joonkun she laughed at how childish the boys were, run around chasing one another other, its like they are five year olds.

‘here you go~’ joonkun handed her the bag which seemed much heavier than it looked, ‘its a bit heavy...’ he added slightly quilty he was letting her carry it all the way to the pension.

‘nah~ its okay, i got it’ smiling as she headed up the forest pathway.

‘hey guys! youve got two hours before the crew gets here, so unpack and you can do whatever afterwards!!’ shutting the back door, joonkun hopped into the drivers seat

‘oh! hyung! where are you going??’ hyunseung being the first to notice that joonkun was leaving

‘you guys will be here for three days, so enjoy it~ i have to go back and get some some things sorted before you guys come back~ don’t worry, i put a folder of things that keira would need to know and do, boss trusts her and so do i...just be nice to her....’ smiling he concluded, ‘tell the others that ill see them in three days~! have fun!’ he shouted after hyunseung as he backed out of the parking lot.

‘aigoo, are you serious??’ sighing he looked at the bags on the floor and turned to the others, ‘guys! get your stuff~! we need to get ready first!’

stopping in their tracks, disappointment flicked through the boys faces but it was hardly seen as the boys quickly replaced it with smiles.

‘where did hyung go?’ dujun asked as he slung his backpack on his shoulder and picking up another

‘he had to go....so its only going to be us eight...’ shrugging it off hyunseung informed the leader that they only had two hours before the crew comes, ‘so lets hurry and unpack then we can head down to the beach~!’

‘good idea...kaja~’


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trying to regulate her breaths as she stomped up the hilly pathway, she watched the boys casually walking a few metres behind her chatting happily, ‘seriously...what did they pack in here!! my god, its so heavy...those bags look like nothing when they are holding them....well thats probably because they have muscles....’ sighing ruggedly, and pouting she looked up the path....the pension was nowhere to be seen yet...’is this even the right way??’ she started talking to herself, it been like this for the past few minutes.

‘you need any help?’ she heard a voice right next to her ear, shocked she quickly turned around to face whoever it was. only centimetres from her face a cute little face smiled, then backed away

‘oh! yoseob! you scared me!! haha’ she laughed a bit crazily

‘come on...’ holding out his hand he gestured at the bag which seemed to be gaining weight every second,

‘aniyo...you are already carrying a lot of bags yoseob...i think i can manage one...’ brick-filled, ‘bag’ smiling she continued stomping...realising that yoseob was still tailing her like a lost puppy, she stopped and turned around to see a pouting sad face, ‘you REALLY want to carry the bag for me??’ lifting her eyebrows she negotiated, ‘fine. as long as you give me one of your bags to carry, lets exchange.’

as soon as he heard her say yes, a big smile appeared on his face, ‘ok!’

swinging the food bag happily, yoseob turned around as one of the boys called him, ‘just a sec~’ he quickly told keira and walked back to dujun who seemed to look very relaxed relaxed.

sighing as she observed the perfect group behind her, the tallness, the different yet extremely handsome faces she scrunched up her face in jealously and continued her walk. it was much nicer now since yoseob swapped bags with her.

‘yah~ youre suppose to be carrying the bags for her, not swapping them...’ junhyung lifted his eyebrows at yoseob who was standing next to him

‘she wouldn’t let me!’ frowned yoseob flicked his head towards junhyung, ‘then you go! you go and get the bag off her~ i doubt she would even let you~ no one can reject this cute face’

before yoseob could say anything else junhyung had already headed over, casually taking large steps towards keira who seemed a bit too lonely.

‘you know you can walk with us, keira’

flinching at this familiar voice keira stopped and slowly turned around

something inside her fluttered before she replied, ‘id like to keep the awkwardness at bay for now...especially since im not that close to you guys yet and also that we may be staying under the same roof’

‘firstly, what do you mean ‘you guys’...im pretty sure that i know you a bit more than the others,’ he chuckled which made keira slightly uneasy, not knowing whether it made her feel good or bad. ‘and secondly, this wouldn’t be the first time weve stayed under the same roof... you need to chill’

scoffing she thought, ‘chill!? don’t think its just only because of the girl guys thing...it also has to do with the fact that you guys are bloody attractive and also that i lik- what? no...’ she shook her head, not possible keira...not allowed.

‘kwenchana?’ junhyung cocked his head to the side.

‘hmm?’

'fine...ill shut up....but atleast let me carry the bag' junhyung grabbed the handle on the backpack and slipped it off keira in such a smooth and swift motion she just stood there and let him do it. swinging the pack onto his shoulder he continued walking leaving keira standing there mouth open.

quickly pacing to catch up to him she retorted, 'you could have atleast let me answer' she scrunched her eyebrows

chuckling at this cute expression he was impressed, ‘oh. we’re here’

suprised, keira looked at junhyung and then followed his gaze to a beautiful modern bach-like pension.

‘wow, ipuda~’

‘kaja~ lets go in~’


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‘boss do you really think its a good idea to leave keira alone with all the work and also the boys??’ joonkun asked over the phone he heard a low sigh, then the voice answered.

‘ive thought over this ever since last year....i think it may be good for the boys to get used to such a presence and also...they are like sons to me joonkun....i cant accept that they will be alone forever....’

‘ne, boss, i get what you mean....but,’ slightly hesitating he continued, ‘but what if the plan doesn’t work....??’

‘dont worry joonkun....it will work’

‘ne araso boss, see you soon...’

‘ahh~ jam kahn mahn don’t forget to get some drinks on the way! we need to celebrate! this is quite exciting!!’

leaving joonkun alone in his car to think over this plan he chuckled at how the boss was taking all this, he was even the one to plan this.


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‘i bags this room!!’

‘what? no! im having this room!’

‘yahh~ im older than you!!’

‘aaah!! hyung~~~!’

dongwoon and yoseob fought over the room which keira thought wasn’t even worth fighting for consider there was a room that overlooked the beach next to the pension.

‘yah~! be quiet!’ dujun warned, 'well settle this like we settle everything....' pausing for a while then grabbing a few things from his backpack, 'ladder game!!!!'

'aigooo~ ne~' the boys sighed...but then their frustrated faces turned to smiles since they knew this was the only way to solve such problems like this

'so do we include keira as well?' dongwoon asked innocently

'we should let her choose her room...' gikwang answered thoughfully, a bit too seriously, for the first time today

'hmm...speaking of keira, where is she?' dujun asked as he drew up the lines for the ladders and wrote down the names

scanning the room, junhyung cleared his throat and stood up, 'you guys continue, i have to do something....' walking out of the room they we all huddled up in, the boys followed the slim, tall figure with their eyes, puzzled. clearing up the all-of-asudden silent atmosphere yoseob turned his head back to the boys, 'ok!! lets do this!! that room will be miine!!'

quickly distracted dongwoon whined, 'no way hyung!'

soon after everyone had their focus on the game expect for two, dujun and gikwang.

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checking each room he passed with no sight of keira, junhyung sighed in frustration. he was at the end of the hallway already. walking out into the backyard, the sun had already fully risen welcoming him with its warmth. included in the garden was a little picnic area and a playground. smiling inwards, he put his hands into his pockets and headed over to the swings and he wasnt the only one there.

gently sitting down he paused for a while before saying, 'i hope youve chosen which room you want' keeping his eyes on the horizon infront of him.

'are you guys deciding on the rooms?' keiras voice broke a little, she hasnt been talking ever since they entered the house, and her memories from home was a little bit too much for her to handle right now.

nodding once, they just sat there silently, an occasional rocking, or swinging. it wasnt awkward, it wasnt uncomfortable. it was nice, it gave a calm feeling, the kind of feeling where you know that all you need for this moment is just company, just someone to be there by your side. the feeling that makes your heart flutter and warm. listening to the waves crashing, the birds flying around the beach infront of them and the bugs calling.

'oh! there you guys were, were gonna play a game of ball you wanna join?' hyunseung stood at the frame of the door, keeping his distance incase he was interuppting something. turning his head slowly, junhyung looked at hyunseung then turned to keira as though asking for permission.

'go~ its okay, go have fun' putting on her best smile to convince junhyung even though she didnt want him to leave

'wait for me~' he said before he walked away

'have fun!!' keira called out after them

it was wierd, it felt silent, cold and empty, as soon junhyung walked through the door and out of sight. as though he took the sun with him. the garden just felt cold and lifeless

sighing keira started swinging, feeling the cool breeze on her face as it blew her hair around. loving this sensation, she pushed harder, swinging the highest she could and couldnt help but start laughing. this always happened when she goes at a certain speed, her stomach starts getting tickly and she ends up bursting out in laughter. finally stopping to take a break she felt a little better, [b]must be the adrenaline kicking in[/b]. she heard a hearty chuckle behind her, reflexing she quickly flicked her head around.

'i hope you dont mind if i join you?' the boy eye smiled at her
'umm....yeah~ sure, no problem'

'i hope the bags werent too heavy' gikwang said apologetically after a while, 'i wanted to help, but i was already carrying three' shrugging he looked at keira

'oh~ thats ok, yoseob helped a lot by swapping the bags' keira couldnt help but begin feeling slightly awkward...why is it so different when gikwangs around?
'i-'

'i-'

'oh sorry-'

'sorry'

chuckling gikwang finally said, 'you go first'

'no its okay you go first' feeling her cheeks heat up a little

'i was just going to ask....um....dont take this personally or anything but....its like your home isnt it?' gikwang took his breath and looked deeply into her eyes to check if he may have upsetted her, before releasing when he knew she was alright with it

keira simply answered, 'yes'

'same here...' gikwang turned away shocking her with his answer

what does he mean?

'i used to live in the countryside' gikwang continued answering keiras question, 'i missed this....dont you?'

looking into his innocent eyes full of longing, keira wondered if she looked like this when junhyung was here before.

'yes, i do...it just brings back all the memories'

standing up all of a sudden, gikwang stepped infront of keira facing her and held out his hand, 'come on...let me take you somewhere'

looking up curiously at gikwang then his hand she hesitated for a while waiting for if he would drop it and change his mind, but he didnt. he just remained in the same position waiting for her.

smiling inwardly she finally answered, 'ok then....but we better be back before the crew comes' and took his hand


'not a problem!' he replied warmly. keira couldnt help but be reassured by his sweet smile, the smile that she felt shes seen before.

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